♥ Mei Fen

GoJane Spreeee!

2010-01-05T17:01:35Z

overdue peeks from my cammie!

love this polaroid! :]
new year's eve:
had lunch at chinatown then went town & dinner at shokudo.

new year's day gathering at cousin's, played mahjong and played with the dogs.

my brother got 13wonders. hidden talent. lolls.
ftt on sat! damn fast!

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imy, jbaby!

2010-01-03T20:47:26Z

hello chewy, fudgie and peaches
im savouring sweets now! eat so much sweets.
feel so pui. laters become puibong ]:
MUST LOSE WEIGHTTT.
I NEED TO FALL BACK TO 45KG PLSPLSPLS! :]
tyvm.
im gonna continue watching my dramas!
bye!

byebye2009, hello 2010.

2010-01-03T20:27:08Z

"i'll update again when i feel better,
but now, i feel like saying:
hello, too-oh-oh-nine.
yupp, i think everyone's saying it.
four days of 2oo9 past, i've yet to pen down my resolutions.
nevertheless to say, im busy, but i dont know what i've been busy with.
i fell sick, and it sucks.
i just wanna say, please be a good year, & i'll love you.
school's starting tmrw, im not looking forward to it.
one month past too quickly.
lets hope school past as fast, and i'll be shopping overseas!
goodbye, too-oh-oh-egg.
it has been a fruitful year, many great things happened.
passing my legal year with all my loved ones.
having someone in my life.
went overseas with friends twice. hk&bkk.
friends came and go, but goodfriends stayed, im glad.
i feel that it has been a good year, and thanks lovelies for it.
&hearts "
this was my entry exactly a year ago.
how time flies, its been a year, im nineteen yet still living in my eighteen stage, since my nineteen was not fantabulous, oh whatever! turning twenteen soon, i refuse to admit an age without a teen behind! i wanna have a bombastic twenteen birthday!

so ~~goodbye two-oh-oh-nine~~ and hello two-oh-one-oh!
hope it'll be a jolly year for you, and for me and the entire human race!
& ofcause to tofu and tummy babies!

twenty-oh-nine past pretty quickly.
i've learnt some valuable lessons, some painful experiences which i will abstain from repeating, ofcause much more. especially on people whom i cherish, i need to treasure. "cherish what you have, because once its gone, it'll be gone forever"
many significant things happened in 2009, which i feel has an impact in my life. be it in love, family, friendship, work, school, whatever, never take things for granted, and be truthful regardless about feelings towards things, individuals, or anysorts. facing the music is a chore, but its better than living in denial.
seriously, the year swift past, i have to admit i sorta wasted my life, i realise many things though. but realising is not enough until you put some actions into it to change the way things is. guess some stuffs, i need to learn through the hard way. friends came and go, most did. so like, wtvr! shall not dwell on the past anymore. wells, life's a bitch, most of the times, so if one cant go against it, live with it. and live it to the fullest! :]
i went overseas many times, with my love, and friends. hmm, i may have neglected many friends too, due to other commitments, i'll try to balance everything, i just need time. and i need a job. a freaking job to sustain my life. i need lots of money to fulfil my wishlist.
okay, according to psychologists, "78% of new year’s resolutions are doomed to failure". but wtvr, i make resolutions in hope to adhere to them and perhaps make this year more fruitful than the rest! i have many many things to achieve this year, as im going to be 2 soon, damn it. so here it goes!
resolutions
1) be happy regardless of whatever happens, be optimistic!
2) go to school! no more skipping of lessons! & be more hardworking!
3) knd earn lots chingchingz$$$!
4) learn new skills/brush up on current skills, self improvement time!
5) design/customize items, a new skills yo.
6) dont buy unneccessary stuffs/ stuffs i wont use/wear.
7) save money for remodules & save $$$ to have more more money
8) ability to balance between, bf, family and friends
9) lead a healthier lifestyle!
& the list goes on...

wishlist
1) blackberry bold/bold2
2) burberry long wallet
3) unlimited cash $$$
4) go overseas, tw/bkk/hk/aus with my love
5) refurnish my room
6) lose weight! grow taller! bigger/smaller in the appropriate parts! its in my wishlist every year
& the list goes on...

im gonna try baking this!!!
okay! have fun in 2010!
do keep a look out for my upcoming sprees!
SHOE SPREE! :)

sticky!

2009-12-24T17:13:52Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :)
Thanks for the wellwishes!

& when i feel unhappy & down,
one phone call, made it all up. tyvm baby.
im happy, im glad now. yayness.
savouring sticky candiess. yummy.
that day outing with kyna/outing with hueichin/christmaseve celebrations.

i know i look horrible, like horrendous, look @ the fine lines/wrinkles! yucks. old woman. tyvm.

cake decorating session, & its done, end product nice righttt? :)

met baby to walk ard town first. & his one sweetheart :)

met clique for dinner @ central, & i have no idea what that restaurant is called.
anws, most pictures are with jess. most imptly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHELLIM :)

tummy wishes you a happy&fun day too! :)
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"Muine, this beach at the outskirts, went sand dune surfing, tried to surf the waves at the beach, rode a motorbike, walked on the streams to reach this waterfall, its really an experience!"
ET make Vietnam sounds so fun. Next trip, baby? :)

evergreen tree and wrapped gifts, merry carols and stories, fruit cakes and cookies.

glossy

2009-12-19T19:07:38Z

everytime i see something i like, thats glossy material, i'll be damn sad.
cause it'll make me look gigantic.
im always envious of skinny people! why cant i be skinny too! like really THIN.
& like, i cant wear boots cause im SHORT. wearing it makes me even shorter, plus i have thunder thighs.
i cant wear nice jeans/pants and certain type of shorts tooo!
looking at skinny girls just bring my ego down the drain. ):
god, please lemme be 40kg when i wake up the next day.
thanks :)

updates!

2009-12-18T20:44:59Z

YES! exams is over, and i feel so carefree now!
i was so so happy and excited okay. :)
im gonna say goodbye to those 4 subjects and NEVER see them again!
aftr exams, went to celebrate dad's & bro's bday. at hanabi japanese buffet, super yummy! :)
price is like about $38/person. forget the price, i reckon its better than kushinbo!
baby's @zouk, and im home rotting!
i am so tired yknw, but i keep watching newmoon & playing rollar coaster kingdom.
so many overdued pictures taken like few months back, but unloaded from the cam!
overdued:

ANYONE WANTS FOREVER21 SPREEE? FRIENDS ONLY. THANKS.

night!

2009-12-16T20:06:19Z

everyone's leaving for bangkok!
i wish i could have a getaway too. ):
is the world small or is singapore just too small?
so funny! omggg.
anws, 3 papers down, 1 more to go!
marketing research, stinks so bad.
i wish to pass it!
meeting hazel and mf laters!
goodnight :)

boredddddd

2009-12-11T14:39:29Z

one paper down. three more to go.
im so bored. i dont feel like studying. ):
& so, i know im late, but yeah.
i've got twitter for so long, and just did my first tweet. LOL.
can add me here:
http://twitter.com/meifennn

watch!

most,

2009-12-08T20:10:14Z

& never knowing what could've been
Not seeing that loving you is what I was trying to do.

the cow turns pink!

2009-12-06T19:49:56Z

how now brown cow.
there's so much things to do.
so little time.

I PASSED MY BTT FIRST TIME :]

went johor ytd with bee and sis.
first time shopping there, like literally.
town after. stayovers3d2n, watched faf4.

met up with bestfriend kyna few days back.
she's such a bimbo now! :]
ate. shopped. homed.

random entry cause im so sleepy yet i feel like writing rubbish.
goodnight.

panol aje noh

wake up call,

2009-12-01T17:23:28Z

dear diary,
life has been in a turmoil for the past month.
its december now. christmas is nearing.
dont know why, but i feel least excited about it;.
in the month of november i realised many things.
be it in love, friendships, life, family, etc.
my life's in a huge mess, and im still clearing things up.
i hope everything will get betters this month.
i've realised i've been wasting my life away that i've gotta regain everything back.
19plus years of life, poof, gone.
it was at esplanade, when he told me everything, have i realised.
i wanna treasure people whom i think its worth it.
many things such as personal traits, its also time for a change.
words are cheap and plain.
but i do not wish things to crumble once again.
im trying to pick up the pieces.
& hopefully, everything changes.
i'll be happier. :)
one more week to exams, study psb friends!
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Mei Fen thoughts to self,

2009-11-23T19:16:15Z

Things happens for a reason.
& for this reason, you tend to think deeper, further.
So whats wrong with this life.
Yup, I've screwed my life up, BIG TIME.
I'm lucky to realise it now, better than never.
Not till the day where I'm banished to a state of nothing.
He was the one who triggered thoughts into my mind.
Made me ponder and think.
What have gone wrong?
Not too late. By 20, better change.

Life is not always at the peak of a ride.
Its not always rainbows and not shades of gray.
One can never know/tell what another is thinking/feeling.
Even how close/affilated, unless he/she tells you.
Through expressions, some could be told. Whether its the truth/lie.
You accept it, nevertheless, as its better than digging to rock bottom.
Then again, simple answers like, "nothing" already betrayed themselves.
Truth is reality, and facing up to reality is excruciating.
People pretend as they dont want to face the music.
They smile it off, when they feel all bitter inside.
They laugh it off, when they feel like crying/screaming.
Perhaps, everyone has their own way of expressing themselves.
Screaming, shouting, pouring out the sorrows, jumping, shopping, going crazy.
Just how long can one pretend/hold? Endurance? Fakers?

Nothing is perfect in this world.
Including you and I.
Not even the "perfectionist".
But you have a way with me.
You make me smile,
cause butterflies in my stomach,
made me think, matured with me,
taught me things, know the world,
realise/admit to human errors/mistakes,
& many more.
Your words ring in my head, at this moment.
I will treasure what I have and do what I can.
To prove, to show, as action speaks louder than words.
I will give you what I can,
& I hope you could to.
I won't expect more than what you can give.
I will smile when you make me happy.
I will show my displeasure when you make me angry,
& I miss you when you're not here with me.
Simply because, I love you.

Thats me, how about you?

you,

2009-11-23T18:48:55Z

I want you to hug me from behind, unexpectedly.
I want you to give me your hoodie when I'm cold.
I want you to hold me and keep me warm.
I want you to cuddle with me and watch movies.
I want you to kiss me in the rain.
I want you hold my hands and play with my fingers.
I want you play with my hair.
I want you to take amazing photos with me.
I want you to come to my house and meet my family.
I want you to lay in my bed with me and just hold me.
I want you to let me dress you up and make you look silly.
I want you to tell your friends everyday how much you love me.
I want you to write me songs and poems.
I want you to watch the sunrise with me.
I want you to give me piggy back rides daily.
I want you to kiss my nose.
I want you to wipe my tears away.
I want you to swim in the ocean with me.
I want you to tell me you miss me.
I want you to drop everything and hug me tight.
I want you to take pictures of us.
I want you to take me on a picnic.
I want you to snuggle with me in the movie theaters.
I want you to squeeze me as hard as you can when you hug me.
I want you to smile ever single time you see me.
I want you to know how much I love you.
I just, want you.

IMY

2009-11-23T16:43:38Z

Saw you walk into the room
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe am I ever glad you wanted me to
It's been two years to the day
Half the time I've been away
I know I'm not there enough but that's gonna change
'cause I'm coming back
To show you that I'm keeping the promise I made

When I'm with you I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count when I'm with you

Yeah we've had our ups and down
But we've always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
'cause when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
When ever you're not around
When I kiss you I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you
Whatever it takes I'm not gonna break the promise I made
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
(Make every second count)
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
Yeah

Love this song now!
Am missing someone so so so much! ]:

urghhh,

2009-11-18T19:23:36Z

reading friend's blogs make me wonder why they can get through but we cant.
feeling all emotional again. damnit.
the message seriously screwed me upside down inside out.

happy,

2009-11-13T15:43:40Z

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything

Don’t you take chances
You might feel the pain
Don’t you love in vain
’cause love won’t set you free

I can’t stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what it I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just trying to be happy
I just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
just can’t let go
just trying to play my role
slowly disappear

But all these days
They feel like they’re they’re same
Just different faces
different place
Get me out of here

I can’t stand by the side
Ooh, no
And watch this life pass me by
Pass me by
http://www.elyricsworld.com/happy_lyrics_leona_lewis.html

So what if it hurts me?
So what if i break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
my feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I’m just trying to be happy

Oh, happy
Oh

So when it turns that I can see?
This rope?
Victim?
Don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge?
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
I just wanna be happy
Happy
I just wanna be
Oh
I just wanna be
Happy.

its not about love, its about friends,

2009-11-09T12:59:47Z

FRIENDS.
do you know, friends whom i thought would be for lifetime, aint what they are?
its scary how they claim to be there yet they were never there,
whereas, whenever they need you, they'll call you, and you'll be there.
how naive and stupid right. (right.)
when things happen, they were never there, no msgs/calls of concern, at all.
so why are they even first place people whom i thought - true friends.
stuffs happened cause i -, yet, its not worth it at all.
whats the point of saying you're my -, you're my -, when you dont even pratice what you preach.
or rather, you dont even mean what you say.
if you love me as a friend, you wouldnt leave me in a lurch when you know something's amiss.
if you care for me, you wouldnt have no words of concern, instead, damn those stuffs you asked.
for what did i do silly stuffs, like - just for -.
seriously, when things happen, you know who's there for you, and who's not.
they knew it, but they chose not to do anything.
so much for being "friends" you know.
when i receive calls, its always forever for a favour. not care nor concern.
like, seriously, forget it yo.
i wont even treat yall as close friends/best friends.
cause i know who treats me better than yall.
i wish i knew it earlier from the start.
i deluded myself, thinking i was right, everyone else was wrong.
i should have believed.
-
wells, on a side note, its not too late to find that out.
im thankful i thought over it a few days back whilst i was thinking of stuffs.
yes, i think alot, thus my insecurities, everytimeee.
i still have myself, i still am myself. yeah, im a loner.
cause i believe, there's really no one you can ever rely on, except yourself. no?
friends, HA, LAUGH BIG TIME, esp whom i just mentioned, really aint worth my time anymore.
for fun, for play, for laughters, yes, other than that, no.
dont expect me to be there for you when you need a shoulder, cause yall were NEVER there for me.
dont expect me to hear you, cause yall were NEVER there for me.
yall should not expect much from me anymore, cause i've seen yall true colours.
i should not be so stupid as to do such stuffs anymore.
for yall, i hurt someone. aint worth it.
i'll try to be independent. i'll try to be fine. i'll try not to think.
seriously, yall have disappointed me big time.
thou shalt not regret whatever, but learn from mistakes.
LAUGHS HILARIOUSLY.

introducing tummy,

2009-11-02T19:09:05Z

hi, im tummy, or you can call me dudu.
im male and about 7weeks old when i joined tofu.
im whiter and stupider than tofu.
my hobby is to sleep and eat, eat and sleep.
i love to shit in my house and hide my shit.
whenever tofu runs the wheel, i'll follow behind her and trip and fall.
i feel that im quite dumb, but becoming more clever.
i know where's the exit out of my cage! -winks.
my owners love me alot, shower me with care and concern.
im different from tofu, cause i love to drink water!
my favourite hideout is my house cause my cooling plate is inside!
alright, im tired, im back to slumberland!
psst, tofu's my wife! dont snatch!

cherish,

2009-08-13T11:00:01Z

CHERISH
the big word that everyone usually neglect.
as the saying goes:
"cherish what you have.
because when its gone,
it will be gone forever."

- anonymous

introducing tofu,

2009-06-26T17:42:36Z

hello, my name is tofu.
i am currently 6/7weeks old.
im a roborovski, i love to run around.
i love to run out of my cage so that my owners cant find me.
& im great at hiding. sadly, i cant resist nuts!
im growing fatter day by day, cause my owners refuse to let me out.
luckily i have no wheels to run, so i can exercise.
and maybe, i can join the hamster's race and win first prize.
i will wait for the day to come.
finally, i have great owners who love me alot.